Rubina Dilaik recalls a dark phase after her first breakup; says 'Was deeply sad and financially broke, there were times when I was crying all the time'

Television actress Rubina Dilaik recently opened up about one of the darkest phases of her life. During an episode of her podcast, Kisi Ne Bataya Nahi, the Bigg Boss 14 winner recalled the time after her first breakup. The actress revealed that during that difficult period, she was emotionally shattered, financially struggling, and often found herself crying constantly during that difficult period. (Photo: Instagram)

I also went through a dark phase in my life for almost two years. It was after my first breakup. I was deeply surrounded by sadness and financially broke. It felt extremely heavy. I used to wake up at night and cry. I disconnected from my friends and did not inform my parents because I never wanted them to worry about me. (Photo: Instagram)

I have always been someone who helps others, but during that phase, I kept pulling myself down and constantly questioning when I would feel like myself again. There were times when I was either sleeping or crying all the time. Even today, talking about that phase gives me goosebumps. (Photo: Instagram)

I had disconnected from everyone. Back then, I was practicing Buddhism and would sit for hours chanting, without any direction, just holding on to some kind of hope. Mujhe pata nahi chal raha tha kya karoon. Main puja bhi karti thi. I prayed a lot because I genuinely didn’t understand what was happening in my life or where I was heading. (Photo: Instagram)

I remember my pet Romeo being there for me through everything. He would quietly sit beside me, circle around me, and even sit near my feet whenever I cried. He was like a child to me, but the unconditional love and comfort he gave me were beyond words. (Photo: Instagram)

At one point, I realised that if I kept beating myself down, I would only spiral deeper. That’s when I understood that I had two choices — to stay a victim or become a victor. I couldn’t see the light ahead, but I decided to take baby steps. (Photo: Instagram)

Even something as simple as taking a bath or making breakfast for myself felt extremely difficult then. But I slowly started appreciating those little victories. I would tell myself, ‘Okay, I took a bath today, that’s enough,’ or ‘In the evening, I’ll at least cut some cucumbers and tomatoes for myself.’ (Photo: Instagram)

That was the phase I was going through, and I can completely relate to anyone facing something similar. Honestly, if that dark phase had not come into my life, I wouldn’t be the person I am today, and I probably wouldn’t be able to have this conversation right now. We become who we are because of the struggles and darkest moments we survive. (Photo: Instagram)